September 17th, 2018
Had the day off today which was good. I feel like I’m always running around but it is nice to get out and the weather was beautiful. I did have to replace my rear brakes but man, was I productive! How does this make sense? I LOVE the waiting area in my mechanic’s office. Like, seriously. It is pleasant, quiet, the wifi connection is great and I sat for a whole 2 hours, uninterrupted. It’s amazing!
I used to have a love/hate relationship with my days off. I would really, really anticipate having the day off and be in a really good mood the day before. I tended to get so excited that I would drink more than usual that night and wake up feeling pretty awful. I’d power through the morning and be anxious for the afternoon until I could crack open a beer. The respite would be short lived though because a few hours later I would come to the realization that I wasn’t going to feel so great the next day and become anxious about that. Sometimes I feel as though the energy I spent thinking about drinking was almost as draining as the hangovers. It’s called decision fatigue. And it’s real.
This is one of those (many) moments I have had over the last six months where I really am so grateful that I no longer have all that additional worry. 
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