It’s a week from the new year, 2020. This week always tends to bring reflection for me because it is the week where I tended to struggle the most with alcohol. It’s hard to believe that was only 2 years ago. It feels like a lifetime ago and in many ways, it is. Looking back on that week and in particular, New Year’s Eve, is still painful but I am so thankful that it led to better things and a different ending to 2018. (You can read more about that here, On New Year’s Day)
For most others, it’s an alcohol soaked season filled with wine, memes, and more wine, at least according to Facebook. I try to use this season as a reminder that not only do I not need to rely on alcohol but I am far better off without it. Sure, there are FOMO pangs but that’s all they are and I am confident at this point that I am most definitely not missing out. Especially the hangovers, which are always missing from the memes.
At the end of this year, I am thinking about so many different things. I have the usual “New Year, New You” thoughts. Eat healthier, write more, work on the business more, work on the house more, fill up my fancy new calendar, read more books and stick with my exercise routine but I know that next year will be different from the others. Next year will be, “New Year, New You and Baby too…” That’s right! My husband and I are expecting. A baby. I am due right in the middle of May, just in time for Spring and the warmer weather. So right now I am right at the halfway mark. One week until I am 20 weeks. I am so excited but I wouldn’t be being honest if I didn’t say that I am also anxious, scared and completely unsure of how I’m going to pull everything on my to-do list off in a mere 20 weeks. I’m trying to tell myself that I’ve done more with less time but I’m not really so sure that I have…
I can tell you though that this will not become a parenting blog. There are so very many already and I am sure that I will be leaning on more than a few in this new journey as a first time parent. Please feel free to send any suggestions. Send help. Humor is always appreciated. TIA!
I also know that at this moment I feel very grateful that I began this AF (alcohol free) journey almost 2 years ago. I would not be typing any of these words, which still seem so unreal, if I had not stopped drinking. So there’s that. I’m also pretty sure that I’ve written this before but there are so many sentences that start with, “Because I did not drink today _________________”. And the good news is that is never gets old to fill-in-the-blank.
I know that next year will bring so many changes and I don’t know how it will all work out or what the year will look like when all is said and done. I don’t know if my little over 2 year business will be able to withstand the demands it will be facing or what my future as a Mom looks like. So for right now I am going to enjoy Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, and the week leading up to 2020. I am going to enjoy 2 whole days off with my husband, knowing that next year at this time our little family will be 3.
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