January 5th, 2019
Very happy that things seem to be holding their own at the store. Fingers crossed that this keeps up!
I watched a documentary about Gilda Radner today on CNN. I found it very interesting and I think I’m going to see about picking up her autobiography. There was a segment where she spoke about getting older. That seemed to be a common theme for her, the divide between childhood and womanhood. I’ve never really thought about age very much until recently, I’ve always been very independent. There was a sentence spoken in the documentary where she talks about feeling grown up and how she was starting to notice lines around her eyes and she was ok with that. That resonated with me. I can’t remember exactly what she said it was that made her feel “grown up” but at almost 40 years old I’m starting to feel like I’m not playing house.
I have also noticed the lines around my eyes, in particular in the mornings and later nights. On New Year’s Eve I asked L to take a picture of me after I finished my hair and makeup to send to my mom. I was a little taken aback when I looked at it. I certainly can’t say I look “old” but I look different. Especially after losing the weight, with my face being a lot thinner, I’m showing my age, just a bit. In the simple words of Gilda Radner, “And I’m OK with that”. I also looked happy.
For any of you younger folks out there who don’t know who Gilda Radner is, she was an original cast member of Saturday Night Live and an important female comedian. Look her up. I was very sad that many of Gilda’s Clubs have been renamed because people don’t know who she is anymore.
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