So, for accountability purposes and to really force myself to sit down and think about this, I am going to tackle my self care plan and think of some (calorie-free!) ways to treat myself. I don’t know why I’ve been procrastinating on the fun stuff, it’s so silly. I guess it feels a bit, ok, a lot, uncomfortable and quite frankly, cheesy. I also don’t imagine that I have the most positive self image so I’m also hoping this will help with that.
I am also REALLY good at negative self talk. It’s like a skill. If you’ve followed along or read yesterday’s entry, I slipped up a number of times over the last few weeks with my commitment to quit smoking cigarettes. I am happily back on track now but after having that experience it’s really made me think a lot about addiction in general.
Last night I was thinking about the list of Takeaways I made. Over the last few weeks one of the things that also struck me was the constant way I would berate myself after a slip up. Okay, no, it’s not good to smoke cigarettes. I’ve of course made lists and counted all the ways and reasons why. But at the end of the day, I smoked a few cigarettes and got back on track. If you went by the incessant chatter playing out in my mind, I single handedly bankrupted us, killed a few small children with second hand smoke (I never smoke around children), became responsible for global warming among other environmental ills and ruined my business in one fell swoop because a customer just HAD to HAVE SEEN ME and they were going to expose me for the horrible human being that I am. So there we go.
The negative self talk doesn’t help anything and negative consequences or feelings clearly have not been a source of motivation for me. If that were the case, I wouldn’t have spent so much time feeling very hungover and very guilty, repeating the awful cycle daily. So, in light of this, I’m going to focus on the fun stuff.
- Candles As it turns out I am very responsive to anything aromatic. I have become slightly obsessed with candles and incense oils. I highly recommend it.
- Herbal Tea I vow to finally go to the tea shop next week and get some loose tea and figure out how it’s done.
- Running I never thought that I would think of exercising as a treat but lately it has been such a luxury to have the time to be able to go for a longer run.
- Flowers I have always loved fresh flowers. Coincidentally, while many people have a green thumb, I have a black thumb. I worked with a local farm last week and they left me some very nice plants, I’m going to try to do something nice with them. Apologizes in advance to any floral arrangements I may inadvertently harm.
- Magazines Marie Claire, Elle, Cosmo, you name it, there isn’t a magazine I don’t love to look at. I am going to get a subscription and make sure I set aside a little time to read them. In the age of Pintrest and search bars and on demand images, I still can’t get over how much I love to flip through magazines. I blame Seventeen.
I’d say that’s a pretty good start.
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