Day 374 – Soberversary

Well, I did it. Look at that. I hit the big 3-6-5, my first Soberversary, 9 days ago! Woo-Hoo! Leading up to it I was feeling a bit like it was no big deal. Actually, I was feeling really depressed because of the business situation but I digress. I was also a little disappointed that I wasn’t feeling more excited about it. I posted about it in a group and most people seemed to feel like that happens after awhile, it becomes a new normal, which makes sense. I didn’t think too much about it.

That morning I got the little alert on my phone that I hit 365 days. Ok, cool. Go me. And then I stopped for a minute and took a look around. The perpetual empty beer bottle on my nightstand has been replaced by a basal thermometer (to track my temperature for ovulation). My morning cigarette replaced by a morning run. Now when I get up in the morning, I look forward (mostly-haha) to the day and not back at the night before as a clue to gauge how crappy I would feel.

THIS is my new normal. And how absolutely wonderful.

I didn’t have any big plans or treat myself to anything special. But it did feel like a special day. Going forward I’m going to considerate it another birthday because that’s just how it felt. Your birthday doesn’t feel the same way when you turn 35 as it dit when you were 5 but the day is just a little bit more special. And next year, I’m asking for gifts.